32 Years

It's my 32nd birthday today. My Aiattatok Nitak. Constantly falling in love with and struggling against my fire self. In the words of Joy Harjo, "Those of fire move about the earth with inspiration and purpose. They are creative, and can consume and be consumed by their desires. They are looking for purpose, a place in which to create. They can be so entranced with the excitement of creation that their dreams burn up, turn to ashes."
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At times, I have bent myself and others, time and space, words and materials and particles, to my vision and made great things. Other times, my hunger has ravaged my body and spirit and mind, my community, my function....
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The heat, the energy, the light--THAT is my definition and my gift...
The mission that I try to accept every day is finding the perfect carrier for that flame....something with the mobility of a torch, the fieriness of a furnace, the sacred warmth of a lantern....
32 years in on this quest...the quest itself has been a great enough opportunity.

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